This is my new addition. I absolutely LOVE it. I stare at it, rub it, think about it, analyze it, cry over it, question it, grieve with it, get mad at it and proudly wear it.
It's not only a reminder of the battle that I fought but, a reminder of all the friends I made that lost the battle. It is a conversation piece for women who are young and do not think that 33 year olds are capable of having Stage II breast cancer. It's awareness. It's a reminder to keep yourself checked or have someone check for you.
My Mudder went with me to get it. We were going to get matching ones. She talked about it for two days. We went to the bank to withdraw our money and drove to the tat shop. When we went inside, they had hard-core rap going. Now, I love me some rap but, this was "i'm gonna kill ya grandmother" kinda rap. She was scared. I designed our tattoos and we were ready to go back. I sat down first and the guy started getting everything together and sterilized. He cut the gun on and draw that first line. My toes curled up into a position I've never seen them in before....EVER! After she saw how my toes curled up when he started it, she chickened out. She left the room. Said she would make a nice contribution to the Breast Cancer Foundation here in town. I guess I can't blame her. It was painful but, it was a good kind of pain.
It was the type of pain that I knew something pretty was going to come out of it. Kinda like all the pain I've gone through to get these new boobs I have. I would post a picture of them on here but, I don't want all you people in blog land to see them just yet. They are still underconstruction.
On April 1, 2009, exactly one year to the day that I was diagnosed, I am getting a fourth tattoo. I know what I want but, I'm not real sure where I should put it. I guess I have a while before I have to make that decision. P and I are planning on getting married and I'm not sure I want tats on my back in the beautiful wedding dress I'm going to have. It would just look tacky. The tat I want would cover my entire back....it's gonna be SWEET! I might look like Lil Wayne when this is over....all tatted up.
